Weekends

It's funny - I've had lots of people ask, mention and or wonder: Why are you doing this?
I think the real answer won't be known for a while, maybe as soon as we get home, maybe someday - years from now, or maybe really, never actually something that anyone could put their finger on......
But, this I know for sure:
I am always striving to be a better person.
Each year as my birthday comes and goes, I think to myself, am I doing what I want to be, am I who I want to be for myself, my kids, my husband, my family & friends? Am I in the kind of health I want to be in at 43 years old? What do I want to do different, does my life flow daily in a healthy, happy way, Am I making the most of opportunities that God puts in front of me?
What is my purpose?
How do I want my kids to live their lives?
Do I spend my time wisely?
Do I surround myself with healthy things, people, activities and thoughts?
I am an Aquarius. At least I used to be, I haven't looked at that stuff on FB re: your zodiac sign changing....
Anyway - I love the water, I love warm air, I love being outside, I love the mystery of the ocean, I love not wearing shoes. I am drawn to this climate.
I honestly believe that when Alexander, Benjamin & Carlie graduate from college, they will have to know another language. I know you can learn Spanish at FSHS or LHS. But, I want my children to be versed. I don't just mean that they can hold a conversation with you and look you in the eye. I want them to know what they want. I want them to have experience in different situations that will give them the edge. I want them to be able to roll. I want them to have dealt with different situations that will help them in their lives at some point, in some way or on one day!
At home, I was feeling like I was never in control. And I don't mean, I didn't get to decide where we ate dinner - I mean, I was just bobbing along. Not doing anything great - just doing lots of great things that maybe I wasn't making great because of something else.......
Youth sports absolutely dictate my life. On pretty much any given day in our home - someone outside my house is dictating what my family does.
I'm not saying it's something I didn't sign up for. I knew when I enrolled all 3 of my kids in piano lessons that that came with a price of time. I knew when Alexander decided he wanted to play sports - and not just 1 sport (God forbid) that that would mean a commitment of my time ( I really mean my family time ).
I knew all of these things, but one thing I don't remember from my childhood is that daily, there is SOMETHING that HAS to be done. I'm not talking about taking out the trash, pulling weeds, making dinner, doing laundry (oh how i miss my machine!)....
I'm talking about something that someone else has decided for me, as far as time, place, length of activity, day.....
For example, baseball practice. Sundays......SUNDAYS.....really? In my mind, Sunday is the worst day imaginable for a baseball practice. Sunday is the day you just do. Church, Dinner, then, whatever it is you want to do. Play in a creek, horseback ride, play whiffle ball, football, go for a bike ride, explore, whatever it is that sparks something in you, it seems to me that Sunday is the day that you should do that.
My son even plays in a football league that game days are Sundays..... So there must be a lot of people in the world who think Sunday is a great day for youth activities!